Miranda, a studious girl in a very prestigious college preparatory school, was working on her science project one day, when she hears James call her from the top floor of the library. being the good girl that she was, she didn't think anything was going to happen, but it did. and it changed her life forever.

you see, Miranda and James were best friends for three years; they did everything together, from shopping, to cooking, hell, even sometimes sleeping (but just that, they knew how to sleep together without being overcome with sexual impulses). Miranda has felt more than friendship for James for most of these three years, but she never told him, fearing that it would split their friendship; he had said on many occasions that they were just friends, and more like brother and sister than anything, so them going out or doing anything sexual together would be awkward.

But that day in the library changed everything. James called her upstairs because he wanted to complain about how there were no good looking girls at the school (a favorite gripe of his, as if she could do something about it). This time, however, Miranda heard something new in his voice, as if he didn't believe what he was saying about her being decent enough looking, she just didn't have a feminine-enough figure, unlike Elena, but Elena looks like a 7 year old when she forgets to put her make up on. so, Miranda decided to do something she would never do if she actually thought about it.

"you know, James, I am tired of listening to you say there are no good looking girls in this school. there are actually some pretty amazing looking girls, you just aren't looking in the right place. You say you want a girl who can be flexible, knows when its just being friends, and when something should mean more. you want a girl who is your steady girl, but who is also just a fling. there are girls like that at this school. if you would just shut up and listen to me, you would realize this." then she kissed him and walked away.

a few days later, he approaches her and asks her if they can talk for a while. he tries to make small talk, but she jumps right to the chase.
"if you're just gunna make small talk and not even pretend to remember anything i told you two days ago, im done. but if you have something important to tell me, tell me right now and cut the crap."

"i love you"

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ok. so. this didnt really happen, nor do i want it to happen just like this. but im in a similar situation where i like my best friend but he always bitches about there not being good looking girls at our school. i know i should just get over it, but i cant. i dont like being asked what he should do in regards to other girls. he doesnt have the balls to ask any of them out. i dont know why. he talks about how he doesnt fear rejection.

what do i do.
how do i tell him what i really feel.

why the hell does life have to be so confusing?